Friday, January 6, 2012


I've had quite a few questions come to me as of late in my "mundane" role about spiritual trainings... where one would go to learn the tricks of the trade to defend themselves against attack, to take the fight to the other plane and fight for those who have no control or knowledge of what we know and see.

What I say to you is this, read up on projection, read up on protection and read up on your chakras. One who knows signs of their weaknesses will know how to strengthen themselves. Do not fight with pure emotion it will be your downfall, but learn to use your emotions, learn to use the emotions of your enemy, learn to use your surroundings.

This is true for any fight but when dealing with the darkness one must learn everything about the darkness to bring the light.

I cannot stress enough that keeping with your kin, keeping with those that have an understanding of this is essential.

By no means do I mean cut off those that are not "gifted" no, never... but when you train, when you make connections, when you learn of others who share in your gifts, do keep in contact, do consolidate your efforts, keep eachother in check, in balance, and help eachother train. It is the best for all of us.

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Been a while

It has been quite some time since I have written publicly on any spiritual subjects, I feel now is the time again.

I have spent the last year coming to terms with my spirituality. Based in christianity as a whole, though focusing more on the spiritual side, rather than fellowship and forgiveness, hard to do, as I said, a basis.

I started life very young, very stupid and very hard. I got involved in many things that I should not have been. I had worked for the other side, the dark, the evil that is, Satan whatever your preference really.

I had a master who taught me to use my...abilities for their will... I did this freely, no strings, no deals, just freely. I had not promised my heart or my soul to anyone or anything.

I was asked to hurt people, which I did, driving them into madness, tainting their thoughts and minds with whatever I could come up with. I was then asked to kill, by my hands, someone that would have a strong influence on the lighter side. I was at odds, I had never thought of such a thing, I could not contemplate harming someone I knew had done nothing wrong.

I ran away, I cut off contact from my master, my trainer, and lived life for what it was for a few weeks until I ran into them again. The torture they put me through, the threats on my life, my family, my friends was almost enough to get me to do it. I still maintained my stance.

I got home after this confrontation and felt my heart being ripped in two, I could feel the pressure of something new deep within me, a pain I had only seen in the minds of those I had hurt. My own tactics were being used on me, my gifts were turned against me.

I died that night, my heart stopped, my skin turned white and I was no more.

In the moment I knew everything was over a voice came to me, I know him as my brother, I know him as part of me. Perhaps an instinctual side embedded in me for my protection, call him what you will, but he saved me. He guided me from death back into life. I was given a choice. To die or to serve balance, protecting life for what it is, protecting light against dark and dark against light, keeping things where they need to be to keep life going as it is. To put things in their place when they overextend their reach, or to allow things to happen when they need to... A hard task to endure at times, but it was my choice. I could use my gifts for something better, something noble, something honorable.

I took the offer, and it too hurt, I felt my heart rip in two, I felt a surge of energy within myself and I woke up. I found what one would consider a demon, dead at my feet. I felt like I had exploded and he looked like he had been in an explosion.

Ever since this day I have strived to be completely honest about who I am, what I do and what my past has led me to do.

I have not  known many to understand who I am spiritually, though I have been blessed with wonderful people who have tried, one of them is now in my life as my wife, and it is hard. She is christian through and through, and though we differ in some respects, she is a spiritual warrior as well, but it is hard for her. Knowing I was brought up christian, and in most respects will call myself one, though when it comes to my training, when it comes to my views on forgiveness and spirituality, it is a strain.

I walk this world striving to make up for my past, I will always continue to do so, despite my forgiveness from above, I seek forgiveness within. It is my own evil I fight, but fight for others as part of it.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Dire Circumstances

I do not advocate using spirituality or magics to help make things come to fruition, however there are exceptions that can come up, such as when ones life is in danger (suicide, homicide, etc) where the actions are more than justified.

Friday, April 9, 2010


Causality, the theory that anything we do affects the future, be it holding our breath or not holding our breath, kicking the tires on a car, etc, etc....

Every action no matter how small, can affect the future.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Blood Rituals

This is not something to be taken lightly, rituals involving ones essence, ones blood are not to be performed on a whim, and never performed without a clear mind.

The words, mean little more than what you need to set your mind in motion, so they are not mentioned here.

The actions taken, the meticulous nature in which one prepares.

A drip is all one needs from themselves
A heating element to blend and bubble
A hint of Rose Water
A hint of Rosemary

Let it blend, and breathe once boiling. DO NOT DRINK!

This is something I've used for clarity in the past and only use this when I feel I'm being clouded, either in my senses or in my judgment.

When I'm severely lacking and I do not feel like myself, I feel disconnected from the world to a point where I'm spiritually DEAF, I will do the following;

A drip
A ceremonial glass
A pinch of sea salt
A drip (up to a shot glass worth) of rum, preferably a dark rum, in this case I use a rum that has ties to my family and has the hard work of my past bearing in its make. Though I will assume another liquid would be valid, something meaningful to you.

Father, clear my mind and body.
Brothers, aid my soul.
Mother, hold me softly.
Sister, open my eyes.

I have performed both of these in the last month, I felt lost, damaged, lacking in contact with the universe in full. Afterward over the next week, my mind was back to what it once was and I'm seeing what I used to see with utmost clarity. I hear what I used to hear and I feel what I've always felt.


I by no means advocate blood magic or ritual as a general everyday practice and do advise that if one uses any essence aside from their own - please, be clean, dear gods be clean - and realize that if ones will is clear the results are generally clear, but if one is clouded and vengeful, you will not like what will come to you in the end.

There are many more out there, but my place here is to HELP.. I will not speak of the others unless I feel the need.

Sunday, January 31, 2010

A Night for Ritual

The Candles Lit
The Cup Poured
Crystals Circle the Host
Breathe deep friend, breathe deep.

Take the Cup and drink
Burn your incense and breathe

Setting into motion the renewal of mind... Hoping this gets him somewhere... better than here..

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Here....Come....The Drums!

Today is brought to you by the letter M for Monteo.... Clan Monteo that is....